My summer just got WAY busy.
I've finally got some jobs as extras in movies and such, which is good because now I have money! Bad News? Less days with my man. Am I the only one who feels like adults should get full summer vacations too? I mean, I know, I know, I'm still a student, but what I wouldn't give for those days when I got to choose everything I wanted to do. "Hey! I feel like going on a picnic!" is now "Hey! I feel like- no, no, wait, I'm busy that day"
Brennen works three jobs. THREE. (Workaholic, much?) He's a construction worker, a "model" at Abercrombie and Fitch, and an actual model for Look Models. Oh, and he's a waterpolo goalie. So three jobs and intensive practice.
How he survives? I have absolutely no idea.
I love multitasking and busy work, but that's a little too much for me.
So, I came up with this brilliant plan. We need quality time before I leave, he needs to relax, and I need to do something really fun? What does this equal? A TRIP! Now, I have no idea if he would go for this (remember, workaholic) but I want to find a good weekend where neither of us have anything to do, and go somewhere! Maybe camping, maybe go somewhere close like Monterey, or Sacramento. 
We could use it, I honestly think so.
Operation Vacation from Summer Vacation is a go! Let's see if it works
My summer started a few weeks ago, and already the countdown until I leave for college is weighing on my mind. Before Brennen, I thought I could handle moving across the country, but now... I don't know if I can leave him!
Not that I'm planning to drop my college career for him, or I wouldn't have ended up on this site in the first place! We both have big dreams to pursue, I understand that.
We were talking about the distance just yesterday, and he told me his brother thought he was crazy for wanting to stay together and that he "would do fine with the girls at his school". He dismissed the thought entirely, which definitely eased my mind. That's when I realized what was stressing me out about the distance: I've been under the assumption that I'm putting his life on pause by being the one moving away. He is such a wonderful guy and I love him so much, and the idea of causing him pain makes me feel dreadful.
Ok, so I'm rambling and sounding totally lame. COMPLAINING DONE! That is the last time I'm complaining in this blog. I still have... 52 days left before our relationship gets tested, and I plan on enjoying every single little bit of it