Days in a LDR: 1 Month, 8 Days
Days till I see him Next: 1 Month, 6 Days
These last few days have been some of the highest and lowest moments of our relationship to date. I don't think I've ever been this confused on what's going on, and the sparse communication isn't helping. It all started when Brennen moved into his new Apartment for college. He barely talked to me the entire weekend, and only after bugging him repeatedly (I needed to talk to him after a bad incident with one of my friends that scared me) he finally talked to me, completely missed the point of why I needed to talk to him, then told me he was off to a party, and would talk to me tomorrow. I let it go because I know that I can bottle up anger and sadness, and no one will know til it's too late.
The next day, I finally tell him my story, and he skims over the fact that I'm obviously bothered, and tells me about his crazy night. Which I could understand from the point that he was telling me his story because it correlated to my story (he had some issues with watching his drunk friends while he was sober too) but then he tossed in "yeah, my date and I had to help this one girl get to her driver's car"
...date?
He eventually tells me the details after practically pulling them out of him. His cousin's friend had invited him to the party to get to know the waterpolo team, but the theme of the party required a date, so they ended up going together.
It bugged me... it still bugs me, but there isn't much I can do about it except say "please don't do that again"
I'm not the jealous type, honest, but that he called her his "date" really worried me. Why not "friend" I went with my "friend" to the party, she invited me. I would have liked that much better.
After a long discussion over text, and me being slightly on the verge of tears (something he doesn't know about) I asked him if he ever gets frustrated by the distance. I felt really connected to him during that whole talk, and we shared our frustrations and talked about what we were going to do when I came back, things like that. It made up for everything that happened.
The week went by and was uneventful, then the weekend came again! I called Brennen from the beach, and had a long conversation with him, then again a little later when I got back to my room. All was perfect, until last night. After that last call, I texted him most of the night. I told him that I was contemplating going to the party in my complex, or just watching Disney movies with my friends. He told me he much preferred me watching Disney movies, because he didn't want guys all over me. To which I made the joke "Aww... poor brenbren is worried some drunk guy is going to steal his girlfriend!!"
And he flipped out, told me never to call him that ever again, and stopped talking to me. I was a little pissed because here he knows all of my problems and my baggage, and here he is shutting up like a clam and yelling at me. It was an honest mistake, and I thought it was a cute little nickname...
And I've yet to hear from him all day. I don't plan on texting him first, mostly because I feel like I deserve a small apology for yelling at me last night for no reason.
I feel like at times I'm losing him... it just so hard to tell these days.
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