A Serious Love Letter, his Birthday, and passing thoughts.

Days in a LDR: 1 Month, 11 Days
Days till I see him next: 1 Month, 4 Days

I just got my first official love letter from Brennen the other day! I'm still recovering from the shock of it. He obviously wrote it very quickly, but that really adds to the message in it. A sort of "in the moment" thing.

He told me that for the first time in years, he actually cried. He was watching a movie with a scene in which a group of Army wives get informed of their husband's deaths. Of course, he was texting me at the time... and while I haven't asked yet (we haven't had this time to discuss this letter yet, I want to!) I'm assuming he was Replacing Army with Navy, making me a Navy Wife, and having that happen to me. But again, that's my guess, I'll inform you of his actual thoughts when I get them out of him.
He said that he never wants to hurt me, and that causing me pain gives him more fear than dying ever would (I'm sure alluding to the above situation).
He then added on that he could imagine a life without me (something I told him I couldn't), but it would be lackluster and without happiness.
I must have read this letter 20 times before I got into my class. I couldn't believe it. I really wanted to write a response, but with his birthday present being sent out tomorrow, I decided it would be the perfect response.
Now, why? Because it's a large, hard bound sketchbook with love letters, quotes, songs, stories, pictures, and drawings all telling him how much I love him, how I wish him the best birthday, and how we can overcome our 2000 mile distance. 

....still going to talk to him about the letter, though!

I would guess we're finally out of the red zone of last week with everything that went down, but I still need to have a serious talk with him. Brenbren still confuses the hell out of me...  and I need to question certain things about boundaries for both of us (I've had a lot of guys hitting on me, and I need to know his thoughts... he can get jealous, and no one wants a green boyfriend!)

I'll get back to you on the serious talk... I'm sure it'll be juicy!