Days till I see Him next: 9 days
Well, for the first time ever, Brennen read my blog. After mentioning to him in a conversation over the phone that I occasionally "blog out" my feelings before I tell him made him very curious as to what I say in my posts. So, he sat down and read all of them, and sent me responses or explanations on things I mentions. Talk about awkward.... some many of the things I say here are not written for his eyes. not because I'm hiding things from him... just because it's my thought processes, and I tend to go on crazy rambles sometimes, and mention things that really should just stay up in my noggin. Most awkward ones being: The one where I describe my pregnancy scare (he knew it was a possibility, but he never knew how scared) the one where I described how I lied about a certain dream I had (I didn't want to jinx it from happening...) and ones where I mention him not talking to him.
He took it better than I thought he would, but it definitely made me second guess whether or not I was going to pick this up again. (Hence the long delay for a post)
The nice thing about this happening is that he was in contact with me the entire weekend...and a lot of things we hadn't discussed since we were CD came up in conversation. Like the fact he changed his mind about Pre-engagement rings. He now thinks it would be a good idea for us to get rings.
(Silently, and very surreptitiously, I am celebrating this)
Now, if he's going to act upon this idea, who know.... we;ll have to see!
This conversation was brought by a larger one about marriage. He had mentioned our future together very casually, so casually that it almost seemed like he was saying "The Ocean is Blue". So, I called him on it, and he said... if everything goes right, he expects this to work.
Interesting....very interesting...
It doesn't help that he also sent me a video last night of a funny Marriage Proposal...where are these thoughts coming from?? Sometimes, I wish he had a blog I could spy on...
Other than a few messages here and there, the week has been it's usual bare communication. I'm actually getting use to not talking to him for entire days. I don't like that I'm getting use to it, but I am.
However, to pass the time, and to help me de-stress this hectic week, I decided to watch a mini series called "Lost in Austen". (HIGHLY recommend this mini series... beautiful, charming, and so Austen!)...and that got me in the romantic state of mind... my hopeless romantic side is making a comeback! Ah!! Imagining me as Miss Elizabeth Bennett, Brennen the ever-wondrous Fitzwilliam Darcy...
Sad part is, I mention to Brennen that it's based on Pride and Prejudice (the series) and he says "Oh! I haven't seen that yet"
Seen.
SEEN.
....it's a book??!! Somewhere, Jane is rolling in her grave...
Of course, he corrected himself after my small heart attack... and I told him he should try reading it... every guy should! At least get the version with zombies in it... anything!
The closer to me coming home, the bigger my expectations of what's to come get bigger... poor Brennen, he probably doesn't have anything planned for us. But he has to compete with Darcy
Well, it's nearly one am! Tata for now!
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